I Can Find God in the Darkness

This I Believe

Meditations on My Core Christian Beliefs 

January 7, 2022

I Can Find God in the Darkness

Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad?

I will put my hope in God! I will praise him again—

my Savior and my God!

Psalm 43:5

Read: Psalm 42, 43

Because the refrain in Psalm 42: 5 is repeated in verse11, and also in Psalm 43:5, and because of the repetition of the themes in Psalms 42 and 43, they are generally considered to have been one psalm originally.

These Psalms have taken on renewed interest in the last two years. The covid-19 pandemic shut down much of our economy and most of our churches for many months. Saint Augustine noted that we have a God-shaped vacuum within, and we will not be at peace until we allow God to fill the vacuum. These Psalms remind me that God created me with the need to be loved, accepted, and valued, and only God can fulfill these needs. Many people experienced God meeting these needs within the church. When the churches closed, many people felt cut off from God.

The psalmist was living in a time when it was believed that he could only worship God within the Temple. His reality caused him to use hyperbole to express his sense of loss, his sense of longing for closeness to God. But whatever his inner turmoil, the psalmist was single-minded in his purpose:

“There I will go to the altar of God, to God—the source of all my joy. I will praise you with my harp, O God, my God!” (43:4)

The psalmist knew who alone could fill the God-shaped vacuum in his heart.

In August of 2020, when our church was closed, we attended a worship service at an Anglican Church. Since then, two or three times a month we attended their Wednesday evening Communion Service. I recall reading that Saint Thomas Aquinas referred to Holy Communion, or The Lord’s Supper, as ‘food for the journey.” He was so right as our participation in the Sacrament has sustained us through the pandemic. In the darkness of the pandemic, as our souls were longing to worship God “As the deer longs for streams of water,” (42:1) we were led to a place to find food for our journey.

My Takeaway: One of Stephen Covey’s Seven Habits, is to keep the end in sight. In the darkest moments of the pandemic, we never lost sight that our heart’s desire was to kneel at the altar of God and taste the bread and the cup. We put our hope in God and He led us to His table.

Sē’lah

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(Selah is a word that appears in the Book of Psalms that I often use as the Complimentary Closing in my correspondence. Its meaning, as I use the word, is to pause and think about these things.)

 

These meditations are written by Alex M. Knight as he seeks the life in Christ as his way of life.  The meditations are published on the BLOG, http://seekingthelifeinchrist.blogspot.com/ and they are also distributed on the Constant Contact email server. You may subscribe to this email service by sending an email to: amkrom812@gmail.com.

 

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